There is a war

There is a war I fight with myself almost everyday. Some days are better than others and then again some days I feel like everything is broken and my fault. Days go by and sometimes even weeks and it feels like my world feels like its shaking and then it starts shattering and I'm sitting there and sometimes under it as it all crashes down upon me and around me. I do not know what causes it. My wife always comes to calm me down and sometimes it's like I'm wrapped in my thoughts and my emotions to even notice she's there trying to guide me as she tries to tell me its all okay. She watches me fall but she tries to catch me even  though she's trying to build herself back she'll destroy herself so we can fix each other and grow. She's been by my side through everything and she has not once left me she stayed through it all. She's my light through this war and shes my everything. She picks me up when I need it the most and I love her for it just like she loves me for me.